~Have you ever wondered the whys and wherefores of your life? I have. ~Probably most of us have at one point or another.
~I just couldn't figure it out...my adoption....Why? I knew the circumstances behind my mother putting me in an orphanage, but in my heart of hearts, I just couldn't get a grasp on it.
~My blood father didn't own up that I was his. My birth mother gave me up for adoption. My adopted father has been emotionally absent most of my life and physically absent during his business years. My adopted mother had some severe issues - for which I was later able to forgive her - but it took time.
~I couldn't resolve having been given up for adoption. Was it like giving away a puppy?...Was my life a mistake - some quirk that took a wrong turn?
~I was sitting in my counselor's office, and she began to pray for the Lord to heal me. (I knew God was my Father, because Jesus was my Lord and Savior, but I just didn't have any answers....)...It was then that the Lord showed me a vision of myself as a fetus in my mother's womb...
"My dear Crista. I planned for you. I gave you your earthly parents so you would have certain physical characteristics and talents, but I planned for you. I AM your Father."
All those years I thought I had been a mistake....His reassurance reached into the recesses of my tortured heart...and He showed me a scripture I never knew existed...
Psalm 139:15 "My frame was not hidden from You, when I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. v. 16 Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed...."
~The photos were taken in 1970 when I was an exchange student in Germany for only 8 weeks ~ my birth mother and me. She was 60 and I was 17 1/2....In another post, I'll tell you how God became real to me that summer.
Blessings always,
Crista (CMSimmons52@aol.com)
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